I feel trapped in the life that I thought I wanted when I was younger. Now that I'm half way to somewhere, I keep looking around and thinking that I should have created a different future for myself. Sometimes, I wish that I had wanted to marry or to have children, but NO, I never had the good sense to want either of those life changing experiences. Now that I actually have all the wants I thought I wanted, all the unknown wants are haunting my subconscious. They are so deep in my subconscious, that I have no idea what they are. All I know, is that they are impatiently waiting (tap, tap, tap) for me to discover them. They really ought to learn the two step or the shag, because they are wearing out that tap dance on my soul.
I know you can't help, but don't you think I could get a little help from the Lord despite my sins?
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Welcome to the confusing world of a successful work warrior. We have all stopped at a time or two to question our choices in life. But the good thing is, there is the future to build. You still have a chance at making some different choices. Enjoy the ride.
ReplyDeleteThat's so true. Now, if I knew which way to go into the future, I would definitely go.
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ReplyDeleteI did not know what I wanted. I always thought I'd be married and have children because that's what everyone did. But in college I decided I wouldn't conform to society's demands, but to my soul's. And I find myself alone, but not lonely at all. I don't think I could have handled kids, in hindsight. Its odd to think that now.
ReplyDeleteI admire that you were true to your soul, and I'm most glad to hear that you haven't suffered for it!
DeleteHalf the time, I think the "river of life" takes us down the stream without us much having a say where and when we are going.
ReplyDeleteI think you may be correct in that thought. My marriage and children views were formed before I ever grew into an adult, so I often think that life was making choices for me,
DeleteHello old friend, whys your new year look like?
ReplyDeleteHi Jay! It's looking a little cloudy today, but the temperature will be more favorable due to that gray sky. I'm always pleased by a 75 degree day. As for the rest of the New Year, it's looking much the same as last year. It's full of family, friends, exercise, possession maintenance aka housekeeping and car-keeping, reading, shopping, etc. You know, mostly those things that comprise one's daily life. How are you? What's new with yo
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