It isn't easy parting ways with people that you love, but sometimes it's the only way forward. Wouldn't it be nice if there were a better way to let go, besides heart ripping pain? Wouldn't it be nice if we could just "remove" people from our lives as easily as we remove facebook friends we no longer want on our page? Some people have no trouble pushing the real life disconnect button, but I'm still looking for it. The danger of love for me is that my heart wishes to keep loving people I have grown to love. Granted, it's sometimes hard to recognize the feeling as love, because at times the feeling feels like hate. But, I know full well what that means. It means, I love something so intensely that it spurs me to feel the complete opposite of love, if I am deprived of it. Even, if I was equally responsible for depriving myself of it.
I am NOT searching for the "real life disconnect" button in order to disconnect from any one person, I simply wish to disconnect from the intense feelings I hold for certain people, so that it doesn't hurt when I think of them, talk to them or see them. I want to continuously love those people that I love but can't keep. Not with the same kind of love, but a less selfish love. So, I endure the heart ripping consequence of daring to love, while proudly wearing my lingering distress as a badge of honor. My heart was brave, and it will be brave again!
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I know the feeling. I want to keep on caring for people even when they don't deserve it. Its much easier said than done.
ReplyDeleteYeah, imagine how God must feel ;)
ReplyDeleteThere are things that we never want to let go of,people we never want to leave behind. But keep
ReplyDeletein mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.
It's the beginning of a new life. There are things
that we don't want to happen but have to accept,
things we don't want to know but have to learn,
and people we can't live without but have to let go.
Jay@ Thanks for thoughtful words. I'm struggling with that last one -- coming to terms with letting go of someone that I really didn't want to live without, but knew I couldn't live with.
ReplyDeleteIn endings there are beginnings, in letting go we can recieve...
ReplyDeleteI like what Jay said.